Why Georgia by John Mayer

I am driving up 85 in the
kind of morning that lasts all afternoon
just stuck inside the gloom

Four more exits to my apartment but
I am tempted to keep the car in drive
and leave it all behind

Cause I wonder sometimes
about the outcome
of a still verdictless life

Am I living it right?
Am I living it right?
Am I living it right?
Why, why Georgia, why?

I rent a room and I fill the spaces with
wood in places to make it feel like home
but all I feel's alone
It might be a quarter life crisis
or just the stirring in my soul

Either way, I wonder sometimes
about the outcome
of a still verdictless life

Am I living it right?
Am I living it right?
Am I living it right?
Why, why Georgia, why?

So what, so I've got a smile on me
but it's hiding the quiet superstitions in my head
Don't believe me
Don't believe me
When I say I've got it down

Everybody is just a stranger but
that's the danger in going my own way
I guess it's the price I have to pay
still "Everything happens for a reason"
is no reason not to ask myself

If your're living it right
Are you living it right?
Are you living it right?
Why, tell me why
Why, why Georgia why?

The Lull Before the Storm

My family has never really been a very traditional one so we have never really celebrated the mid autumn festival before. So its been quite an awesome one really. Although the number of Chinese students here aren't that many but somehow it felt like a big event to me this year.

On the day, we ate mooncakes in the cafe and later adjourned, yes, to carrying lanterns and strolling around the whole college like it was ours! Everyone was taking pictures, and I've got to admit all the colorful lanterns were really beautiful. Besides that, about 50 to 60 of us also went to the nearby temple(佛堂) to celebrate on Saturday.The performances and "fashion shows" by the kids were great and us kmm students were oddly, very..how should we say it?eh, in the mood I suppose. So all in all, a meaningful Mooncake festival this year!

Talking about new experiences, I am proud to say that I have finally donated my blood for the first time! I was quit down that day but after donating my blood, my mood just... lifted^^ I suppose doing something for others once in a while really is good for you. Theory proven! So, more donating blood for me in the future..I hope XD

Truth be told, I'm swamped by all the studying and homework and revision that I have to do right now. ( That's why this post is sort of rushed.) All I see people doing now is study study study cause finals are just around the corner! And I quote our capable non-bumi advisor:" If you don't get 4.00 in the first sem, then you will never get 4.00." I know, I know. If you can't face it now, what are you going to do when you go to university? 

Putting my results aside, I think my new life is making me half crazy right now.( Or maybe I already was?) It's not just the pressure of THE 4.00 really, its.. everything. I wonder, is it possible to have a "quarter-life crisis" like what John Mayer sings in Why Georgia? (lovely song by the way) 

I know I'm getting closer and closer to the time when I simply have to decide what to study.  But luckily, I just thought up my main goal in life- to get a nice job and earn some money to be able to firstly, help save the world(don't laugh, com'on someone has to do it right?), second, travel the world and thirdly, make a movie(or movies?). Okay, I really am half crazy. Even so,  I am simply too tired to care now.

Wish me luck in PSPM(finals)! 

p.s. I dedicate the my next post to John Mayer's Why Georgia.

"Undepress" me

Been a tad bit depressed these few days. Maybe because.. I'm thinking of the inevitable? God I wish I didn't have to go back. But life has to go on right? I chose to go so I can't blame anyone for feeling miserable sometimes.

So, here I thought about some of the things that have made me lose the long face and I shall dedicate this post to them.

First off, MOVIES and DRAMAS

P.S. I Love you- Sad but nice

Julie and Julia- Very nice and funny too. Julia Child is inspiring! She made me feel better. Not to mention all the delicious food. 

 

The Korean Version of "Playful Kiss" 韩版恶作剧之吻 - Sure, I only watched four episodes but it made me feel tons better. My brother would call it a stupid show( no surprise there>.<) but hey, its entertaining and funny^^

Second, BOOKS

Artemis Fowl and the Atlantis Complex- Not bad, but not as good as the previous ones.

Ok I succeeded in reading only one book this week. Again I'm wishing I could rot at home like the time after SPM. But no, I will not dwell on the past anymore! 

Geez, sorry everyone for the not-very-cheery me recently. I am such an idiot sometimes. I need to find a goal or a dream or whatever it is right now, or else everything seems pointless somehow. Wish me luck!

Block out the Worries for 24 hours

It's been quite a while since I've written. I guess I'm not used to the sharing-my-thoughts part of this, cause well, I'm not much of a chatty person myself.

A lot of things have happened in the past few months that reality just hasn't quite caught up to me yet. Though, I have to say, Malacca is one interesting place to visit! A big bunch of us Matric students went "outing"(outing is what we call being freed from the confines of KMM) during our first weekend back after a week and a half of our mid-sem break.

Me and my friends have been to the two biggest malls in Malacca- Mahkota Parade and Dataran Pahlawan, quite a number of times already, so this time me and some others decided to venture out of the air-conditioned shopping malls and brave the sweat for some taste of the real Malacca.

First of course, we went to the Porta de Santiago and St. Paul's roofless church for a few quick pictures. Then down to the Red Square where there were throngs of people walking around and lastly, to Jonker Street. I have been through all these tourist places once before with my parents, so it wasn't really that much of a discovery for me. It was interesting though, to watch people line up right on the road where cars, trishaws and motorcycles were driving on, just to eat in one of the Chicken Rice Ball shops at one end of Jonker Street. The things people do for "famous food". Well ok, I did eat my Chicken Rice Ball lunch, but we chose a big shop that didn't require any waiting on the streets at all. It was only so-so really. I say that because the first time, I ate at a small shop near Equitorial Hotel and it was amazing!

This time around, me and my friend went walking on the street beside Jonker Street(I don't know if it is part of Jonker Street though).There we saw the Cheng Hoon Teng Chinese temple, an Indian temple and a mosque. All three on one street just like the one in Penang. That day was the first time I ever walked right into a mosque, though we only stayed for like a minute cause time was running out and we had to go do some shopping too.

All in all, it was quite an enjoyable day. I loved not having to study and do homework for a whole day, or go to classes and worry about quizzes day in and day out. In fact, my friend-who has been in the same class with me since secondary school, went with me to a not-so-legal screening of Toy Story 3 in on of the lecture halls that night too. Boy, what an experience! The audience was so emotional over all the big, exciting moments and great escapades of Woody, Buzz and Co. that I was quite exhausted at the end of it all. The movie was indeed, not just entertaining but moving too. Thumbs up for Pixar and the guys who made Toy story such a good one to watch.

In the movie, Andy is all grown up and is going to leave for college soon. Everyone in the hall went 'wow' when we saw him for the first time. Time passes by so quick. We have all grown up. No longer little kids,no longer playing with the toys we used to love, no longer living at home. It was sad to watch Andy leave at the end of the show. Ah, life. What else are you holding in store for me?

Change of worlds

Hope, is what we all need. I am by no means an exception to this rule. We have to keep hope alive even in the toughest of times, so that we can live on in this demanding world. And yet, what is it that I hope for? What I hope for the most right now, is to have a purpose in life and to know what I really want to do and achieve with my life(cheh, very noble sounding sentence =,=). I have on all accounts, pushed thinking of this sort to the very back of my mind(being the fool that I sometimes am).. until now.

Ok ok, wait a sec. I know many people don't want to read about a crazy depressed teenager talking about dreams and hopes and well, depression, but stick with me here. After all, this is my first post.

Right now, I am living in one of the oldest matriculation colleges in Malaysia(actually probably the oldest one). The buildings here are not just old but also lacking in aesthetics, though I don't really mind the environment that much because the greenery here is quite beautiful and sort of calms my thoughts. Ah, now you know.. I am a Tree LOVER!(and yes, my favourite colour is green ^^) I love to look at grass, trees, bushes and meadows for they give me that sense of wonder. Plus, looking at nature, ironic as it may seem, does put a smile on my face.

I have been here for almost two months now- how time flies! I can still remember( and sometimes feel)how hard it was to be here for the first few weeks. I guess, every high school graduate feels the same way when they leave home for college. Missing home, missing friends and missing great food is the biggest problem most of us face(right?).Seriously though, its not as bad as I make it sound sometimes. I have learnt quite a bit about lots of things and truth be told, I guess this place could be good for me. Coming from 11 years of chinese-ed schools, I guess I haven't really come into contact with the real world until I came here. No regrets though. As a chinese, I am quite happy that at least I know how to speak the language of my ancestors. That's all thanks to my parents:)

On another note, I read an article in the papers the other day regarding the public services department's scholarships. Ah, the coveted jpa scholarships. The day the successful applicants were announced will probably be etched forever in my brain. Such emotions we feel when it comes to this issue. Honestly, I was quite disappointed in failing to obtain one,but what the heck, I don't even know what I want to study yet! It hurts though, when your friends and even strangers you've never talked to, take off and leave for something that seems impossibly, much better. Now I know, being left behind doesn't feel good at all. But at least, I've gotten over that now. All the best though and congrats though, to those who did get a jpa scholarship^^ Back to topic. The guy who wrote the article said that our education system is polarized and in serious need of reform. I absolutely agree. We need to do more to improve our education systems, and it needs to be done soon.

Studying in matriculation, I have made quite a few revelations. First of all, I now know its not as relaxed as people say it is. Matric is tiring! We have class from 8am to 4pm four days a week and 8am to 12pm on Friday. On top of that, the homework is literally never-ever-ending. We have tutorials and past year questions to do, not to mention quizes for every single chapter to study for. Honestly, just starting this blog makes me feel a tad bit guilty. But then, I thought about how much fun I would have and decided to ignore such feelings, at least, for now.

Reflecting on all that has happened to me in these past few months makes me wonder what I will have coming for me in the future. I miss Penang and my friends and home real bad. And don't forget, the gorgeous food! (Penang food is the best! XD) On the upside, I will be going home in just two weeks time after my mid-sem exams. Then again, the downside is obviously, that exams are less than two weeks away >.<

I want to write more but I can't. As people close to me know, I don't function well without sufficient sleep@.@ so toodles then and thanks very much, for reading my first post.